Because I’ve never gone into labor on my own, I’ve never packed the hospital bag ahead of time and had it sitting there ready for weeks. Because so many have been scheduled inductions, I’ve packed the bag the night before, and had everything ready to go. The only one that was a complete surprise was Parker. I developed pre-eclampsia, and because everything happened so quickly, I had no time to pack a bag or get everything ready. That’s one birth I’d like to never repeat again.
Now, here I am at 38 weeks, still perfectly plump and very pregnant. I can’t go anywhere without people asking if I’m ever going to have this baby, and I refuse to answer the phone because the first question always asked is, “Oh, you’re still there? No baby yet?” SIGH. I’m 38 weeks. Talk to me after 40 weeks. Although then you might not like the consequences of asking such a dumb question.
My next appointment is on Monday, and since I haven’t been contracting at all, (which is extremely rare for me!), I know he’s going to tell me to hold on one more week. While I’d give anything to have this baby here, if the doc still thinks he needs more time to cook, then I don’t have a problem with that. I know this baby will not come without pitocin – none of my other ones ever have, so I’m not expecting this pregnancy to be any different.
But, do I pack the hospital bag? I’ve already got my hospital bag check list printed off and ready to go. I have everything I need, I just don’t have it all in one place yet.
Part of me feels like if I do pack the hospital bag, I’ll be jinxing myself. If I’m ready to go, I’ll never go into labor on my own. But, if I don’t pack it, maybe something will happen and I’ll go into labor on my own.
Now, that’s never worked before, so maybe I should try packing and being ready to go. Maybe that’s all this baby is waiting on.
So, as you can tell, my brain is running a million different directions, and I can’t make up my mind. So, where else can I go but to my readers?