I am telling you, I am an absolute basket case. Fine one minute, in tears the next. I think my husband may run away soon. Of course, this is our 4th time going through this together in the 6 years we’ve been married. He may actually be used to it by now!
Hubby and I are dealing with something that is so very far beyond our control. I think we have spent more time on our knees the past 4 days than we have in either of our lifetimes. We can’t fix this, and we need help from the One who can. This week at church is Revival. The timing really could not be more perfect. I think it will help us both to refresh our hearts and be reminded that God is completely in control… especially when WE cannot be.
I called my friend Sabrina in tears tonight after church, and told her I needed a friend. She asked if I wanted her to come over, or if I wanted to come over there. I opted for the latter, simply so my children wouldn’t hear me have a melt down.
I spent an hour with Sabrina, and I am just SO thankful for her. I haven’t had a friend in a LONG time that I could call and spend an hour just crying on her shoulders. She let me cry, rant, and just get everything off my chest. I can’t tell you what it meant to me. We cried together, prayed together, and it just completely refreshed my spirit and reminded me that I don’t have to do it all by myself. I have Someone I can lean on… along with some really great friends that I can count on to pray us through this.
Sabrina, I am SO thankful for you and for your friendship. I have always wanted a sister, and I think you’re even better. (Remember what I said about family tonight? 😉 ) I am so glad that God put Mandy in the boys’ lives so that you could become a part of mine. If I can ever return the favor that you gave to me tonight, please don’t hesitate to ask.
And if you’re not Sabrina and you don’t like this post, well, I’ll just pray that you find a Sabrina of your very own so that you can see how truly blessed I am.
See…. the emotions are just pouring out tonight! 😉