With a heavy heart, I spent yesterday registering my kids for public school. It’s something that I swore I would never do, but I feel that it’s something that needs to be done.
I did not rush into this decision lightly. In fact, the very opposite. I have spent hours on my knees in prayer, begging for His direction. I’ve cried more tears that one would even think possible. I have gone over the pros and cons with my husband about a million times. And after all that, I know that I’m doing the right thing for my family.
So, what makes someone so certain she should homeschool her family break down and register her kids for public school? There are several reasons:
- The lack of social skills and activities. While my kids have quite a few really good friends at church, my kids need more time during the day with other kids. I want them to have sleepovers, play sports, and participate in the social activities that other kids get to do. I’ve watched Zander sink farther and farther into his shell over the past 2 years, and I want to pull him out of that. I want him playing, learning, and being with kids his own age. Same goes for Ashley and Jace. I think it will do them both good to be back in a school social setting.
- Ashley’s grades this year have proven to me that she is too easily distracted and is not paying attention when I teach her. I think it has to do with the fact that I am her teacher, and she’s a tween. It’s hard enough to get her to listen to me about normal stuff, getting her to listen during school is even more difficult. But after watching her grades dip into the toilet, it’s time she get back into a structured school setting.
- I need a break. There. I said it. I’m human. I need 10 minutes to myself here and there. As it stands, I am with all 5 of my kids 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. It is exhausting. Does it mean I don’t love my kids? Not at all. I adore every single one of them. But, I love ice cream, too. Doesn’t mean I’m going to eat it 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
I can already feel the flames from the other homeschooling moms. Yes, I gave up. Not without a fight. Believe me, if I could keep my kids at home and see them learning and progressing in the right way, I would have continued homeschooling forever. But, the cons of homeschooling have outweighed the pros, and my prayers have been answered in a different way than I had hoped for. I hope this doesn’t make you think less of me. My husband says I worry too much about what other people think, and he’s exactly right.
So, August 5th, 2010, Ashley will enter middle school, Zander will join a 2nd grade class, and Jace will be off to Kindergarten. I’m still debating if I want to register Lucy for Pre-K or not. She really wants to go, but I’d really like to have her at home one more year. We’ve really got to kick our butts in gear, though, because we’re not even close to done with this year of schooling!
Wish us luck in this adventure. It’s certainly going to be interesting.