It’s so crazy to think….

That 7 years ago today, I was supposed to be married. I can’t begin to imagine how different things would be if that wedding had gone through.

It was supposed to be perfect. His dad and my Daddy were best friends for years and years. His sister and I were very close and I could depend on her for everything.

Well, those of you who know me… I mean really, really know me, know that I’m a brat. Always have been. Still am to this day. The ex just couldn’t handle it, and he broke things off in April of that year.

I ended up falling into a severe depression. I went from 130 pounds to less than 100 pounds (at 5’9). I did a lot of things that I’m just not proud of during that time of depression. All over a guy. Stupid, I know. I was just so afraid that no one would ever love me that I fell into this awful pit of despair. After all, I was a single mom with a ton of baggage. Who would want that?

Shortly after our breakup, I started attending a different church. It was there that I met Gene’s brother, and ultimately, Gene – the most amazing man on earth.

When Gene and I started dating, I was still at my lowest weight. He was the one that convinced me that I was beautiful, and pulled me out of that depression. He showed me what REAL love is supposed to feel like. I truly believe he saved my life. We’re not perfect, but he is exactly what I needed, exactly when I needed it.

As I look back, I know that everything was in God’s hands… whether I was or not. If Daddy hadn’t died, I probably wouldn’t have moved back to Ohio when I did, I wouldn’t have gotten engaged to the wrong guy, I wouldn’t have started a new church, I wouldn’t have met Gene, and I wouldn’t be as happy as I am right now. I can’t imagine what my life would be like if that wedding had happened 7 years ago. So glad I don’t have to wonder.

I still struggle with body issues, but honestly? I wouldn’t give up my kids or my husband for anything this world has to offer. I’ll take my life just as it is.

Angie Vinez (2893 Posts)

Angie is a wife and mother to 8. Her life revolves around cooking, cleaning, laundry, and other household duties. She is passionate about her life in Christ and wants to encourage other mothers in their own walk of faith. Angie is active on many social media networks, loves technology, photography, and graphic design, and loves creating blog designs for other mom bloggers.



Comments

  1. 1

    I totally feel your pain. Next Tuesday would have been my anniversary with my “wrong guy”, too, although I really can’t remember how many years it would have been!!! (9?)
    It’s so hard to imagine living in the cornfields of Nebraska with him, and different kids. Good for both of us that God knew what he was doing. I was also severely depressed.

  2. 2
    Jonny's Mommy says:

    I know what you mean about how things work out. I never ended up with the wrong guy, but got the right guy to start off with. If I had kept going the way I was with my impatience, though, I would have totally missed out. But I didn’t! I got him! Yeah!

    Just to let you know I’ve been reading your blog and trying to keep up with all that is going on, even if I don’t comment. Somedays I have so many blogs to comment on I just can’t get to everyone and read them with plans to comment later. Then I fall asleep. Then I have to go to work. Then I go home and make dinner and give Jonathan a bath.

    Then I fall asleep again. *sigh*

    Just so you know I am thinking of you and saying little prayers for you and your little ones!

  3. 3

    Great story. Sounds to me like Gene is your destiny. The good lord was watching out for you.

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