So, here’s how last night went:
At 12:00am, Lucy still wasn’t asleep. Jace woke up, apparently from a nightmare, and joined us out on the couch.
At 1:00am, Lucy finally fell asleep, so I put her in her bed, and she woke up screaming. (I also put Jace back to bed at this time. He stayed awake the entire hour on the couch.) He went down with no problem.
Over the next 45 minutes, I tried 5 times to put Lucy in her bed. Each time I laid her down, she’d wake up screaming. Because she shares a room with Ashley, I can’t just let her cry it out.
At 2am, she was finally back to sleep, so I woke Gene up and made him take her to bed. I wanted to see if it was just me. Well, he put her in her bed, and she slept until 9am the next morning. Obviously, we will be making Gene put her in bed from now on.
At 3am, I woke up with THE worst headache I have ever had in my life. I suffer from migraines, but this was 100 times more painful than any migraine I have ever had. I woke Gene up from my crying, it was that painful. I lay there for the next hour, crying and praying that if it was because something was wrong with the baby that my water would break, and if it was something else that the pain would just go away. It finally went away around 4 or so.
At 4:30, Jace was in my room, after having *another* nightmare. I comforted him for a minute and then put him back to bed. He was fine after that, and slept until 9:30.
At 4:45, the alarm went off, and once that happens, it’s hard for me to fall asleep. I listen to Gene get ready in the morning, then worry on his extremely long drive to work. He sends me a text message around 6:40 to let me know he’s arrived safely, and then I can fall back to sleep.
At 7am, Zander was up and ready to face the day.
It is no wonder that I am completely exhausted. Most nights are like this, and I have been living on such little sleep for a week and half now. I just don’t know how to fix this.
Part of me wonders if my headache last night was just because I am so freaking tired. I just don’t know what else could have caused that, but I don’t ever want to feel like that again.
Being so tired has also made me super cranky. I’m taking everything personally – whether I should or not – and I’m letting it make me into this horrible person.
Sorry to whine tonight. I just really don’t know how to handle this. Lucy didn’t take a nap this afternoon, so she was asleep by 8. Gene put her to bed, but she’s been up several times already. She’s back in bed now (10:30pm), but I’m guessing she’ll be up again soon. Lord, I pray that I’m wrong.
I’m thinking I need to take a vacation away from everyone and everything. Anyone up for a weekend trip to a spa somewhere? Of course, I’d have to WIN the trip first. 😉