Can’t bring myself to post today…

I try to mix in some personal posts here and there on my blog. I feel it’s important that my readers get to know ME, and see me as more than just someone who writes reviews and giveaways. While the reviews and giveaways are fun, and definitely help my stats, I want you to see the real me, too. I love when I stumble upon someone’s blog and they write about themselves as well. It makes me want to get to know them, and I’ve actually made many, many friends in the blogosphere because of it. This will be one of those personal posts.

Today, I am struggling. Earlier this week, it was my own fault. I had allowed Satan to grab hold and get me more discouraged than I have ever been in my life. It had nothing to do with my pregnancy – all is going well there there, but a million other things came crashing down. I was angry at God. Angry at people I had called my friends. Just angry. And that’s not like me at all.

Yesterday, it took a friend’s pain to make me realize just how selfish I have been lately. You see, yesterday, a very dear friend of mine found out that the results of her most recent ultrasound were not good. It looks as though her baby may have Ventriculomegaly AND Hydrocephalus. Both of these are very dangerous conditions, and it is absolutely heartbreaking. She has an appointment for a level two ultrasound on Monday, as she can’t get in any sooner because of the holidays. However, her doctor has told her that she could go into labor at any time. She isn’t even 20 weeks along at this point.

I cannot imagine what she is going through after hearing all of this. My heart hurts so badly for her, and I’m sure it’s nothing compared to what she is feeling.

I’ve contacted a friend of mine with the NILMDTS organization to find a photographer in the Carson City, NV area, but we are having no luck. If you know of a professional photographer in that area, would you please contact me? I’ve looked into plane tickets to get there myself, but they’re over $900. Plus, I don’t even know that I’d make it in time, since I’m on the other side of the continent. So, please, if you know a photographer, ask them if they know anyone in that area.

And, I know that so many of you are prayer warriors. Please, please, please pray for this family and their baby. I’m praying that she just had a bad scan and that a second ultrasound will reveal that things aren’t as bad as they seem. We serve a mighty God, who is able to do things we cannot even begin to fathom. If you can spare a prayer for them, I would really appreciate it.

I’ll resume with normal posts soon. I just need to spend today in prayer for a friend and her baby.

Angie Vinez (2893 Posts)

Angie is a wife and mother to 8. Her life revolves around cooking, cleaning, laundry, and other household duties. She is passionate about her life in Christ and wants to encourage other mothers in their own walk of faith. Angie is active on many social media networks, loves technology, photography, and graphic design, and loves creating blog designs for other mom bloggers.


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    Angie, I’m praying my heart out for her. I wish I knew of a photographer in the area, but I don’t. I will post this on my Facebook in hopes someone will know someone.

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    So sorry to hear about your friend. I will be praying for her and her precious little one. I will also keep you in my prayers!

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    Rockin' Momma says:

    I’ll also post on my facebook page. I know some photographers in my area, maybe they will have a friend.

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    Rockin' Momma says:

    You could start emailing photographers in that area and see if someone would be willing to help you out.

    here’s some list of them in the area:

    I did post on both my personal facebook page and my Fan page.

    I do hope that the u/s was wrong and things will be okay.

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    Angie, I will pray for your friend. I cannot imagine what they are going through right now. It’s just heartbreaking.

    As for you, my dear, we all get discouraged and feel our faith is shaken sometimes. I know it has happened to me. But you kept faith, because you prayed, and you asked for prayers. Satan did not win. The danger is in thinking we are or should be exempt from this happening because we believe, because we love God. Even the apostles doubted and abandoned Our Lord. But He never abandoned them. When I am having a particularly hard time, I simply say over and over, “Jesus, I trust in You. Jesus, help me.”

    I know I have not been the greatest friend since August of last year, both to you and to others. I am really going to work on fixing that, because I’ve lost a valuable part of my support system in the process, too. And I could really use some support myself!

    Love you!

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      Oh, Natalie. I love you so much. Thank you for the prayers – and for the reminder that we may turn from God, but He never turns from us. I’m looking forward to reconnecting again. It’s been too long.

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    Hi Angie,

    This is my first visit to your blog, I followed a link on Lindsay Blog’s fan page on Facebook. I have met some photographer friends online this past year so I posted on my Facebook fan page and one of my fans posted it to an online forum for photographers around the county. I really hope it helps and you’re able to find someone. But more than that I’m praying for friend and her baby. I will be praying that her follow-up exam provides a lot more hope.


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      Mandy, Thank you SO much for stopping by, and for posting on the forum. I used to belong to a bunch of them, but since I’ve closed down my business, I don’t have the access that I used to. I appreciate your help and your prayers. Thank you – from the bottom of my heart!

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    Angie…Although I don’t know your friend, my heart sank when I read your post. I will keep her in my prayers and hope she gets better news from the scan on Monday.

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    You are truly a wonderful friend, the baby and family will be in my prayers. Please keep us updated!

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    This is my first visit also. We have a family member that just had the same scan…we are devastated for her and like you praying it is a bad scan…I will pray for your friend 🙁

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    I’m praying for her, too – I had almost exactly the same thing happen to me with my daughter – the ventriculomegaly and everything. It scared me so much, my mom and I both cried over it. In the end everything was normal when we went to that second ultrasound, so in my case I just thanked God, knowing that whether it was a mistake or a miracle I had Him to thank. And when I was going through those few days of fear that something was wrong with my baby it was a huge wake-up call as to my need to have faith in God no matter what the outcome.

    I’m so sorry you have been having a hard time, but don’t beat yourself up too much, we ALL go through these times! I start feeling sorry for myself or discouraged over something in my life and then someone with real tragedy comes to my attention and I feel ashamed. It’s a very good thing that you’re able to change your focus to others in the midst of the hard time!

    But don’t forget you’re pregnant and have been cooped up… I’m finding myself a little short of patience and temper lately, too. We just need to remember to pray for each other and for ourselves that we’ll make it with grace for others! 🙂

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    I stopped to pray as soon as I read this. I am so sorry for your friend. I always pray for you also and hope you keep your chin up and realize we are here for you and God is always there too.

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    I thank all of you for your prayers. I truly believe Our Lord is in control of this situation.
    The friend you have been praying for is my daughter. I will be attending the ultrasound and doctors visit.
    On Sunday, she will be 20 weeks.
    Whatever happens, the baby will be delivered in safe loving arms of my daughter or the Lord.
    Thank you

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    Hang in there…Prayers, hugs and kisses. May 2011 bring much love, faith and hope.

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    Rockin' Momma says:

    Do you have an update for us?

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    An ultrasound was done on Mon, Jan 3rd, and it revealed the baby boy had passed away.
    My daughter will now need to deliver this week. We are very sad at this time, but realize that since God is in control, little Caleb is now in Heaven.
    Thank you for all your prayers.
    Love, Nana


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