So Discouraged

I had thought that things were getting better. We could finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. After 10 days of being trapped in the house, the chickenpox were starting to heal, and we could finally think about getting out of here.

And then, it happened.

I ran to the dollar store yesterday to grab some bread and tuna fish. While I was there, I grabbed one of those little wading pools. I figured if the kids were stuck at home, I could make it a little more fun by putting the little pool on the deck.

Zander went to put on his swim trunks. All of a sudden, I heard him yell, “Awwww…. Man!”

I asked what was wrong, and he came down and showed me: Dozens of new chickenpox spots all over his legs.

SIGH.

I am so discouraged. I feel like Satan is attacking at every turn. All I want is to get back to normal – church, friends, even just taking the kids and going to the park for a few minutes sounds like absolute heaven.

I know things could be so much worse. I am aware of that. I guess I’m just taking another day to wallow in self-pity.

I seem to be doing that so much lately.

God cannot be pleased with the way I am handling this entire ordeal. Maybe that’s why it’s continuing to go on. Maybe He wants me to learn patience and to let go and lean on Him.

I need some grown-up conversation here, so tell me: When you get down and discouraged, what comforts you?

I can’t wait to hear your answers!

Angie Vinez (2872 Posts)

Angie is a wife and mother to 8. Her life revolves around cooking, cleaning, laundry, and other household duties. She is passionate about her life in Christ and wants to encourage other mothers in their own walk of faith. Angie is active on many social media networks, loves technology, photography, and graphic design, and loves creating blog designs for other mom bloggers.



Comments

  1. 1
    Lanamae Byler says:

    I feel for you Angie! MOPs always made me feel better! I don’t have “going out” friends so I usually call my Mom! Or pretend I’m alone and let the kids go nuts! Lol! When the kids ae all better ( and several years from now) you’ll look back & laugh at this! Love ya!

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    brittney says:

    I have personally always been against “it could be worse”. There is no point system for pain or struggles and what is hard to me is not hard to others. You can’t compare that way. And I have always imagined this line up of people according to who has it worst and the poor guy at the end who has nothing to comfort him because he officially has the hardest struggles.

    I think it is more productive to count the blessings you do have. Looking for the good in your own life seems smarter than finding the bad in others to buoy your self up.

    The last six months have been hard for us and there have been many times I couldn’t see any blessings. It was just hard. But I’m finally seeing them. I realize now how these trials have helped and strengthened my family. That is often hard to see in the middle of it but we can almost always undertstand the plan as we look back.
    Hang in there. The way might not be clear now but it will open before your eyes and you will know why. Luv ya.

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    One thing that really helps clear my mind is writing things down. It could be in a journal, it could be on scraps of paper I burn later, it doesn’t really matter. I just write and write until I’ve gotten all the awful things crowding my thoughts down on paper.

    The next morning when I wake up, all the stuff I scribbled down usually stays on the paper and out of my head. I’ve found writing things down more freeing than voicing my thoughts to others.

    Of course, everyone’s different. But feelings like frustration and self-pity can become ugly if left to fester. No one wants to explode at the wrong time or say things they’ll regret later.

    When I write stuff down on paper, I can say all the awful, horrible things that I would never want to say aloud. I may believe it when I write it, but when I wake up the next morning I can better see all the positive things that I couldn’t see before.

    I guess that’s my long-winded way of saying that, before you can really “look on the bright side,” you really have to deal with the negative feelings first. I may be surrounded by positive things, but I’m too stuck in my own head to appreciate any of them if something’s bothering me.

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    DARLA KIDDER says:

    Well it is the worst of the worst for me and my family as of July 1st my family and I will be homeless and hopefully living in a shelter . We are 3 months behind in rent and have been asked by the landlord to move out with no money and no place to go.

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