I don’t know if this is just a funk, a bad day, or if this is the PPD starting to show its true colors. All I know, is it is bad.
I now feel like I did after I had Lucy. Not mean, but not wanting to do anything. No motivation, no will to do anything. The kids have destroyed the house, and I haven’t done a thing.
The more I think about it, I really think that the meanness is a side effect of the stupid birth control shot that I got. I have almost every single one of the side effects listed: headaches, back aches, severe mood swings, hot flashes, hair loss…. every.single.one. So, what the doctor diagnosed as PPD doesn’t appear to be that way at all.
But today, for some reason, I have no “get up and go.” Normally, I have no problems keeping things organized: homeschooling, cleaning, laundry, WAHM stuff – it all gets done. Not today. Today I don’t want to do a darn thing. Luckily, hubby is home today, so he’s taken care of almost everything… including homeschooling the kids. I’m lucky to have him.
I am still taking the Zoloft. When I found out about all the side effects to the BC shot, I decided to stop taking it. The withdraw was so bad, though, that I had to go back to taking it. So, if this is PPD, the Zoloft should help, right?