Last week, the day before Gage’s party – and also the day before I was scheduled to take family pictures for my best friend AND pictures of my Grandparents and the kids, I blew up my photography studio light. And I mean I truly blew it up. I plug it into the outlet, and sparks came flying out of the light. Craziest, scariest thing I have ever seen. I tried to turn it back on, and nothing. No flash. No light. No sign of power.
Immediately, I burst into tears. How was I going to take pictures for everyone? How was I ever going to replace this $350 light? We don’t have that kind of money. Not right now, anyway.
I immediately started praying. “Lord, I can’t fix this light. I can’t afford to replace it. I can’t do anything to make this situation any better. You have to take care of this for me. I was so certain it was your will that I finally open my photography studio back up, and this happens. If this isn’t meant to be, I’m ok with that. I just need a clear answer.”
The next day, I used my flash to take portraits for my best friend as well as for the grandparents. The pictures turned out quite well, and my best friend says she absolutely loved her family portrait. God worked that all out.
The next day, I found out about a local photographer that was shutting down her business. She decided to sell everything. I happened to ask her if she had a light for sale, and she did – for $150. That’s $200 less than it would have cost me just to replace the light I blew up.
I didn’t have $100, so I started praying again. “Lord, this is an amazing opportunity. She has the exact light I need at a much more reasonable price. I know I don’t have the money right now, so I’m just going to trust that you will provide, and when the time is right, I’ll be able to purchase the light.”
The very next morning, I woke up to find $150 had been sent to my paypal address during the night for design jobs I had done for people over the last 2 weeks. Talk about an answer to prayer. He provided every single penny I needed to purchase the light. Plus, I already had some money in Paypal, so not only was I able to get the light, I was also able to get several new backdrops and props – and I was still $150 less than if I had purchased a brand new light.
I don’t know why I can’t just trust God to take control. I’m always so surprised when he works every detail out and makes His plan clear. I know that I am supposed to open the studio back up. He has made that abundantly clear. But after 5 years of having to resort to only shooting weddings or on-location shoots, it was so hard to believe that everything could just work out and I’d be able to open my doors again.
I am so good at putting everything in God’s hands, but then I think I either need to figure out how to ‘fix” it on my own, or I fret and worry about how He’s going to work it all out. I can never seem to just let go and let Him work it out according to His plan. And when He DOES answer my prayers, I’m actually surprised. Why can’t I just have faith that He will take care of it all?
Do you find yourself surprised when God answers your prayers? Or is it easy for you to just Let Go and Let God?