Can’t bring myself to post today…

I try to mix in some personal posts here and there on my blog. I feel it’s important that my readers get to know ME, and see me as more than just someone who writes reviews and giveaways. While the reviews and giveaways are fun, and definitely help my stats, I want you to see the real me, too. I love when I stumble upon someone’s blog and they write about themselves as well. It makes me want to get to know them, and I’ve actually made many, many friends in the blogosphere because of it. This will be one of those personal posts.

Today, I am struggling. Earlier this week, it was my own fault. I had allowed Satan to grab hold and get me more discouraged than I have ever been in my life. It had nothing to do with my pregnancy – all is going well there there, but a million other things came crashing down. I was angry at God. Angry at people I had called my friends. Just angry. And that’s not like me at all.

Yesterday, it took a friend’s pain to make me realize just how selfish I have been lately. You see, yesterday, a very dear friend of mine found out that the results of her most recent ultrasound were not good. It looks as though her baby may have Ventriculomegaly AND Hydrocephalus. Both of these are very dangerous conditions, and it is absolutely heartbreaking. She has an appointment for a level two ultrasound on Monday, as she can’t get in any sooner because of the holidays. However, her doctor has told her that she could go into labor at any time. She isn’t even 20 weeks along at this point.

I cannot imagine what she is going through after hearing all of this. My heart hurts so badly for her, and I’m sure it’s nothing compared to what she is feeling.

I’ve contacted a friend of mine with the NILMDTS organization to find a photographer in the Carson City, NV area, but we are having no luck. If you know of a professional photographer in that area, would you please contact me? I’ve looked into plane tickets to get there myself, but they’re over $900. Plus, I don’t even know that I’d make it in time, since I’m on the other side of the continent. So, please, if you know a photographer, ask them if they know anyone in that area.

And, I know that so many of you are prayer warriors. Please, please, please pray for this family and their baby. I’m praying that she just had a bad scan and that a second ultrasound will reveal that things aren’t as bad as they seem. We serve a mighty God, who is able to do things we cannot even begin to fathom. If you can spare a prayer for them, I would really appreciate it.

I’ll resume with normal posts soon. I just need to spend today in prayer for a friend and her baby.